It was evening, sometime in the late 80’s when, as usual, I reached Gurgaon for Guruji’s Darshans.
Before I could step towards Guruji’s room, Pooran, a staunch Sevadaar did Pranaam to me and said, “Guruji has instructed that no Shishya will meet Him unless He calls himself ”. I asked whether this command was general or it was for me too. Pooran replied that no specific name was uttered by Guruji. I asked pooran to go and inform Guruji of my arrival, may be he allows me for Darshans. Hearing this pooran said that there was another instruction that He should not refer any name to Him as well. I understood now that the instruction was for all including myself. So I sat on the settee in the small room and kept on waiting.
From 6 pm till 9 p.m. And then till 12 a.m., I was not called. Then I went to sleep. After about an hour I woke up due to some noise which came from the room adjoining the kitchen. I got up and thought, Guruji might call me now. But the door was closed from inside and some people were talking which I could not hear clearly. I thought of knocking the door but some how didn’t. After waiting for some more time I again went back to bed and went to sleep.
Next morning, Pooran woke me up at 6 a.m. With the message of Guruji. I immediately got up and went to Guruji’s room where He was talking to some Sevadaars. I sat on the floor and waited for some time. When He got free from others I said, “Guruji, aap ne mujhe Darshan nahin diye, mein sari raat intezar karta raha. Magar Guruji, khana to de dete, mein bhookha hi raha raat bhar.” (Guruji, I kept waiting for your word the whole night. If you didn’t want to give me Darshans, at least the food could be given to me, I was hungry the whole night.) Guruji didn’t answer me. I waited for a while and then took His permission to go to Delhi and came out of His room.
As I crossed the kitchen, I saw two dinner plates full of food lying on the kitchen counter. On my asking, Bittoo told me that Guruji and Mataji didn’t eat food last night. I was taken a back and got stunned. I felt ashamed over my telling Guruji, “Mein raat bhar bhookha pada raha” (I kept hungry the whole night) I did not realize that My Master always eats in the last, after every one has eaten. But I happened to be concerned only about my self and my food. Mataji takes Her meal always after Guruji and Guruji eats after his Shishyas. Last night I didn’t eat, so Guruji also didn’t, and ultimately Mataji also didn’t eat.
This is the world of my Guruji, totally different from the world outside.
Such an example I am sure, can not be available anywhere. Looking to the authority of the Super Master, was there any one who could have checked them if they ate their food in the night?
You can see all people Hey Gurudev, irrespective of the distance and its unimaginable to think that you watch yourself too !
Baar baar Pranaam, Guruji !