170. GURUJI SAID, WHY COULDN’T I CONSUME THE SECOND SPOON OF RICE WHILE THE APPETITE WAS AT PEAK ?

Guruji, he peered  into my eyes and said, “Kyon beta, doosra chammach nahein khaya gaya ? — (So, my son, you could not eat the second spoon of rice—)

As per the command of Guruji, I sat for Seva at my house at Punjabi Bagh every Saturday from early morning till evening. A simple langar, “Rice with grams or rajma vegetable curry” was served to people after  2 o’clock. As a routine, I was the last to be served and that too after the last person had been attended upon at the Sthaan. At the end of the day after the Seva was accomplished and of course without taking any food, the Sevadaar children felt pleasure to serve me a platefull of langar.

Once when the plate of vegetable/grams and rice was in my hands and I was about to eat, a man entered the gate and I passed it on to him. Another plate was given to me but before I could start eating, another person entered and again I gave that plate to him and then waited for the next. After waiting for some time I called out to Indu to give me langar since I had to proceed to Gurgaon for Guruji’s darshans. She asked me to wait for some more time. On my asking the reason, she said that the  food had to be freshly prepared. I immediately said, “No need, something must be left over  and asked her to show me the vessels. After seeing both the vessels I found some rice and some grams were stuck in there. I took a spoon, scraped through the vessels and collected about two spoons of rice and grams and put it in the plate. While mixing them a thought arose in my mind, “Oh ! My God, only this much ?” Had been longing to have it for the last one hour. Then I put one spoon in my mouth, chewed it and swallowed it. An un imaginable satisfaction was felt as if I had consumed a full meal. So much so, that I could not think of consuming the next spoon. The contentment level was such that I could not eat the  second spoon. It  was too strange for me to comprehend. My hunger vanished totally and I had a feeling of having overeaten.

 When I reached and touched the feet of Guruji, he peered  into my eyes and said, “Kyon beta, doosra chammach nahein khaya gaya ? — (So, my son, you could not eat the second spoon of rice—) amazing ! Guruji knows what thoughts prevailed upon me while looking at the small helping of rice in my plate.

I felt ashamed; but Guruji continued , “I have made you strong enough and you are capable of  giving satisfaction to others but ;  when you happen to face such a situation related to yourself then you prove to be small in stature. Shame on you.

And that’s exactly was what I deserved. I apologized and prayed for kripa and his grace.

Such is the control of Guruji that He filled my stomach, gave me satiety with one spoonful of rice; but more important is that He watched me and my thoughts while He was at Gurgaon and I in Punjabi Bagh. In comparable master.