I had a Showroom at Daryaganj, a retail outlet for my business of utensils and other items. It was high time, when Guruji blessed us and be the kindest one to visit there. One fine after noon He visited and blessed me. The news spread and many of the Shishyas also reached there.
I sat on the floor next to His chair and started pressing His legs and continued doing so while Guruji was busy showering His blessing upon all standing in front of Him. Guruji was totally engrossed in delivering His spiritual secrecies to the Shishyas, while I was absorbed in pressing His legs.
Suddenly, Sitaramji, a prime Shishya came in and prostrated in the feet of the Super Master. He just looked at me and anxiously enquired as to which leg I was pressing. I looked at him and asked, “What…?” He replied that in the morning when he went to have Darshan of Mataji, she said that there was one “baal tod” (Hair Pull wound) on the leg of Guruji. Immediately I folded Guruji’s pants and found, it was the same leg. I was shocked. It was the same leg and liquid had started oozing out of the wound.
I knew that the pain of “baal tod” was unbearable to general human beings. I said, Guruji, “Why didn’t you tell me about the “baal tod” on the leg?” He said, “A Shishya is enjoying blissfully while doing Seva of His Guru, how can I disturb him?” I said, “But Guruji, it is extremely painful even at the slightest touch on the point of baal tod.”
At this, Guruji said, “Beta pain to tab aayegi, jab mein usse aane doonga. Meri marzee ke bina yeh kaise aa sakti hai?” (Son, the pain can come to me, only if I allow it to come. How can this pain come to me without my permission)
– un imaginable words.
– Never heard before.
All humans are in the tight net of pain & pleasure. No one else has ever said this earlier “Is it possible for me to understand what Guruji just said?” I am unable to exercise my brain, either to understand, to explain, or to digest it.
All I did then — just kept on listening to the echo of His voice and looking at his blissful shining face. A modest and simple explanation of the highest standard of knowledge in the whole universe.
— I pray to you Guruji to give me Gyan and samarth to understand “Your Gyan”.
Is the pain somebody who will hire a taxi, reach Guruji and ask, “May I come in Sir?”
— The pain rises from within, as I know and is felt within oneself. In the Medical Terminology, it can be obstructed to reach senses with anesthesia. At that juncture of period the person is in the influence of anesthesia and, is in the state of unconsciousness. This is what is known through out. But Guruji was in perfect awakenings state and was giving knowledge to His Shishyas extempore. Haven’t seen or met a human being instructing the pain not to enter His feelings while being in the awakening state.
I am sorry — How can I explore, when I don’t know it.
Must pray to Guruji to open the door of understanding.