In the late eighties, some vested interests had spread rumours against Guruji Maharaj. One of my cousins, who lived in Delhi but had never gone to Gurgaon, called me and said something happened against Guruji. Though, I did not believe him, I called my elder brother’s father-in-law, who is also the father-in-law of Gaggu (Gurujis’ sister’s son) and inquired from him about the rumour. He called someone and returned my call and told me the news was not true and yes, it was actually a rumour floated by some people who had vested interests (as time passed everything became clear to everyone). Somehow, Guruji came to know about my call (that I had inquired about the incident, whether it was true or not) and I also became aware that Gurji Maharaj knew about my call.
Because of my guilt, (that I had to counter check the news of a rumour, meant that momentarily I had lost my faith), I started avoiding Guruji Maharaj and Param Pujniya Mata ji Maharaj’s presence when they were alone. I would be happy and satisfied to see them from far away and did my Pranam from there, or I would go and do Pranam in Their Holy Feet when They were surrounded by people so that I don’t have to face them. Guruji Maharaj used to Tilak His Shishyaas and the sewadaars at the end of Sewa in the Sthaan Room. I only met him there and ran out as soon as He put Tilak on my forehead.
As usual, one fine afternoon, I took my wife and two nieces who were very young at that time, and went to Gurgaon Sthaan for the prayer. This time I did not ask anybody whether I could see Guruji. But, the Omnipresent Guruji Maharaj knew my presence there. Suddenly, Puran Ji, another great devotee of Gurui Maharaj came and told me that Guruji Maharaj was calling me.
When we went to Gurujji’s room, there was only Guruji and Mataji Maharaj. As we entered Their room Guruji Maharaj bolted the door from inside and sat on his favourite bed side and in His favourite posture. I sat down in his Holy feet on the floor; I knew that it was my bad day (because of my guilt). He started a random talk. After some time I asked for His permission to go, He did not answer me and started another random talk.
Again, as I could not face Him and Mata Shree, I asked for His permission. He did not answer me but came to the actual point. He asked me, you did know that lakhs of people visit Him every day and, whether I ever saw Him taking any money or anything from anybody, or whether He allowed anybody offering any money at the Sthaan. I said “NO Guruji”. He then asked me how I could think that He could do whatever I was inquiring about. He further said, “Beta, if I accept even a rupee from the lakhs of people who visit me daily, I could become a ‘Lakhpati’ every day.”
He bestowed upon me the Gyaan and Kripa that day which is hard for me explain in words here. He pardoned me there and then that day and removed my guilt with such an ease.
Hundreds of thousand people visited the Sthaan daily and He could have stopped caring, if one person (me) did not express faith in Him, but, He is Guruji Maharaj who forgives his devotees and does not leave them.
Guruji Maharaj and Mata Shree Maharaj, please forgive us for our sins that we had committed and continue to commit every day.
Guruji’s Krishan Sudama
Krishan Prabhakar, Tornoto, Canada